So, I’ve wanted to write a book for a really long time. I feel like I’ve experienced a lot of things and responded accordingly. Whether me decisions were right or not, I’ve learned and have since developed advice and opinions about a number of topics. While I have several areas of interest (book of restaurant etiquette, familial relationships, fictional topics, or personal anecdotes), I have chosen to post something everyday in hopes of focusing my creative scope. Welcome to my first entry…

I am extremely analytical. If you sneeze, by the time I’ve said bless you I have already considered what may have caused your sneeze, overcome my disgust at what germs you may have dispelled, and consequently considered three possible responses to your action and chosen the most suitable. 22 years of this existence has allowed me to develop an acute sense of self, and I am both helped and hurt by this phenomenon. In spending hours in my own head, I considered something interesting the other day at work; when one says “take things one day at a time”, it is interesting to me. While you may have a single problem which may only seem approachable when dealt with slowly, that problem follows you. In other instances, when you are trying to be carefree and choose to only take things as they come, daily events effect you. While you stop dealing with it, the effect it has had on you will follow you, whether it be through the days, weeks, or even years. So, when I am told to just take things one day at a time, I can only help but imagine starting fresh each morning, but having to pick up my baggage from the days before when heading out. I don’t know if this makes sense. It’s late. 

Also, I have had an interesting encounter with one of very few people I consider even close to my analysis abilities. Because we are both aware of each others ability to see right through every word and action, we are very careful to act only as a reaction. Tonights events were no different. It is a perpetual game of fencing with this person, and I am not sure how I feel. I am one who seeks to win, and it’s extremely hard when your opposer is just as capable to taking the trophy in the end. All metaphors aside, they have officially shaken my perception of our friendship/relationship, and I am going to head off into my mind to consider my next move. 

Thanks for reading day 1. I promise it will become more interesting…